E is doing very well, he is doing more and more left armed....by the time this is all over he may be officially left handed. He goes back to Little Rock for a checkup shortly before Thanksgiving. He is hoping that all is healing well, that the new xrays show a good report and that he can be scheduled to start physical therapy very soon.
Just when I thought I was finally getting on the road to better I had a change and have ended up on the road to worse. Two weeks ago we got out and E drove us over Mt Magazine which turned out to be a not so good thing for me I guess. I had three very bad days in a row that nearly landed me back in the ER. So now I am on a complete different regimen. Plans are hopefully this next week they are going to start figuring out what Ortho doctor and Neurologist I am going to be sent to. Besides many other issues I still have fluid on both knees and my left elbow. While I am really looking forward to that and ready to progress on to figuring out what all is actually wrong and messed up and to what degree and to start working to figure out how to get better and what is gong to have to be done to get there........I am starting to dread it at the same time. It is going to be a long road, and probably painful they say....and I am so tired of pain.
Not only in the last two weeks did we have to deal with the physical medical changes with me.... we both had to deal with the mental changes due to stress, etc, about money going out, out, out and none coming in and everything that goes along with that.
We got out and went and saw the motorcycle. None of the pictures I took do it justice, it doesn't matter at what angle I take them you just can't see everything. I really wanted to take one of E sitting straddle the bike, but he wouldn't get on it. So I had to settle with one of him beside it even though he really didn't want me to take it. Then in the same night we viewed the video tape of the wreck from the store. That turned out to be way more hard and emotional than I thought it would be. In the end after we got home, E said it was hard for him to watch also. So then I started having the dreams again.....it was very hard for me because the first thing I thought was "we were mowed down!", I knew that the car was making the turn and not stopping at all for us, I saw the front tire of the bike hit the car, and several witnesses said the car was speeding....we didn't realize it until we actually saw how fast he was going. Then because I didn't see anything that was behind me due to where I landed, etc....I actually got to see how far from the bike I ended up. We both had hoped that by watching the tape the blanks that we have would be filled in and they were not, that was disappointing in a way, but in the end maybe better for both of us.
I am going to attach a photo of the bike, it doesn't show much though. I also am going to attach a photo of my spine showing the bend in my neck and upper back. My lower torso (hips) are twisted sideways.
I know people talk, gossip whatever you want to say and you can not stop human nature, that is understandable. I, nor E are not in no way, fashion or form, mentally messed up due to not wearing helmets. The issues I am dealing with are not due to a helmet or head trauma, (and yes my head does still hurts in a few places). Yes financially we are struggling, who wouldn't be! you can only save so much for a rainy day, and due to his foot issues and now this wreck he pretty much will be off 5-6 months the year of 2010. year. We have NO income, no we have no disability coverage, E started a new job a year ago, they didn't alert us as to when the yearly change was so we can add or delete insurance coverage, etc....needless to say thanks to someone in the office "forgetting" to tell the newbie that works 3-4 hours from the main office we are in a pickle. We have always had some sort of disability coverage.
Maybe you will never have to experience any of this in your lifetime, and that would be wonderful for you and your family, but please think about how your comments affect us.
In the past month I have had two people come by the house trying to sell us stuff and one asking to do work around our place for a fee. And in the past week I have been asked four times to make donations to various organizations, because I have done so in the past I knew a few were going to be asking again. I had to say no. It breaks my heart. It breaks my heart not to do my volunteer work right now. It breaks my heart to say no I can't donate now due to our situation and get asked three more times about making some kind of commitment.
I know all this is becoming very had on Tbird. I hate it. I feel helpless. We had our accident on Sunday and on Tuesday he was the number one seed for his Tennis team at District. The stress and worry of our situation and the fact that while he was getting ready for his first match we were yet again at the doctor didn't help him. He played a good game....not his best. He got beat barely.....his dream of going to State is shattered.
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